Insomni-Awe

Once again I find myself struggling to sleep. As usual, Allison is drifting off before I've finished brushing my teeth and I'm left to stare at the ceiling.

Once again I find myself inspired by a young faith. This particular young lady invited Jesus to be her friend six months ago. I never would have imagined how that invitation would impact her. In fact, at first, I wasn't sure it had. (Call me Doubting Thomas)

Today, in her blog, she tells how she was sharing God with another girl whom she had only just met.

The whole time we were talking she had this look in her eyes, remembering what she was talking about. Eyes can say so much; they were tunnels to her heart. Then when I mentioned God in something I was saying, I saw something change in those eyes. I kept talking, but a flag went up in my brain. What was that?

She went on to explain to me that she had mixed feelings about God, and of course that inspired a lot of words from me. I told her of my story with God, and a little of why my views had changed, and told her of some really inspiring stories from the bible. That spark from her eyes seemed to stay, and I realized it was the God peeking out of her. Even this girl who was confused and lost and broken, he was there with her, and even though she didn't realize it, I don't think that really matters.

As she reflected on this dramatic change in her life she wrote these words on her blog,

Derian quoted Transformers to me the other day, which I think would be a good thing to include in my blog about transformation."Fate rarely comes upon us at an hour of our choosing," states Optimus Prime in the movie? Comic book? Cartoon? Whatever. But what I see in this is not the obvious message, but a challenge. I want a life that's good, useful, and enjoyable, and I want to share it with God and my friends. Whatever my fate shall be, let me look at it like this: God and I choose it from now on.

Here's excerpt from an article she wrote for the school newspaper,

"...words cannot describe what an impact the people of Youth Unlimited have made; I have never been more thankful in my life for anyone or anything. I would not be the person I am today without them. They inspire me to write songs, to help others, and have gotten me through some of the most challenging lessons in life, those that are not taught in school. One of these things is living with God, which I never would have considered without their influence, but I’m incredibly glad I did."

So as I sit here, staring into the harsh glow of my computer screen, wishing I was tired, there is an incredibly large smile on my face and a deep sense of satisfaction. You might say I have a case of Insomni-Awe!